MCP Dropout

[MorseLady]

I have had no option but to withdraw from the course. It was making me ill and I have had an almost continous headache since the course began. It was affecting everything I do and I was getting angry for no reason and making mistakes, dropping things and generally acting stressed. I realised after the first session that I could not do it but did not want to let down the many people who have been supportive both on here and elsewhere. I come from a family whose ethic means failure is not tolerated and we are judged by our achievements. I now feel and outcast and I hang my head in shame I do not deserve to belong to this forum any longer and will unsubscribe if asked as I have wasted enough of your time and put little back in return.

I have only attended one full and one half session and tonight was the third session in a row I missed. Last week Paul suggested I would never catch up and he was right. Installing Server 2003 and trying to do the labs just made things worse and it has messed up my XP partition too. I have so much to cope with at home with a disabled and difficult husband and an adopted cat with severe behaviour problems ever since we had him neutered at the age of about one. I should have known better than to enrol in the first place. I also blame the College for cramming ten weeks modules into four weeks and making us sit so crammed up two computers to a desk that we were shoulder to shoulder and had to balance those big books on our laps..

Right now I just feel angry and feel like hiding or running away. Goodbye and thanks all.