almost depressed actually.

I went to the gym today and had an appointment with the personal trainer to get the pre workout routine evaluation. It wasn't pretty. My heart rate is okay resting, but shoots to the moon, and takes way too long to come back down. My cholesterol is 316. the combination of working out, not eating today, and having the blood taken caused me to run to the bathroom lightheaded and yack. (well drive heave actually, nothing to yack up) my upper body strength was pathetic. and 33% body fat.

I feel like a complete putz. some ten years ago, I was mr jock. the winter and summer were basketball seasons (organized and pick up leagues) the fall and spring were soccer seasons (outdoor and indoor) plus I played a whole lot of pick up football and other stuff. I was 160 lbs at the time. Now I weigh in at 195

this really makes me sad, angry and scared all at once. How'd I get to this point? Getting involved with computers has been great overall, but I know it helped in my demise. It's easier to play NBA live on the computer than call some people and organize a game. plus I can stuff my face with meat lovers pizza while I play NBA live.

I feel really bad and completely embarrased.