On the verge of losing it

[kato]

I apologize in advance, but I have to vent a little.

I'm so close to completely losing my mind. This schedule of work from 7-3 then school from 5-10 is absolutely killing me. When I get home from work, I let the dog out of the crate and play with him, eat, then head off to school. When I come home from school I try to catch up with my honey for a little while then it's off to bed. Neither school or work is particularly hard, it's just the timing of it all. It's the 16 hour days and never having a day to sleep in.

It's beating me up physically and emotionally. I snap at people and become angry and frustrated at the drop of a hat now. It's gotten so bad that I actually woke up in a bad mood that last few days. How F'ed is that??

I find myself raising my voice a lot more with people and yelling at others. I don't mean to, and certainly don't like it, but it seems to be happening without my control.

Money is tight and we have nothing saved for the wedding in 4 months and that just adds to my misery and anxiety. I'd go get another job, or pick up as much word of mouth onsite tech work as I could to make more money, but I can't because I'm back in school.

I have absolutely no time for myself. On the weekend we usually have plans and when I am just hanging out doing nothing the puppy takes all my energy and attention. The one day I'm off of school (Monday) always ends up being busy for various reasons (if it's not cutting the grass all night, it's fixing a family members machine)

How am I going to do this for another 1.5 years?
I'm almost ready to go postal now, what's it going to be like down the road?

sorry for the vent.

[NooNoo]

At least you are aware that its a problem, now you can start to work out how to deal with it... first thing I would blow off is the family computers, explain to them nicely you do 16 hours a day with computers, you really don't want there problems as well. You might even find they only ask you because they think you might be offended if they asked someone else!

[Draggar]

My wife is in the same boat.

She has school form 9-2 then work from 3-8.
She leaves at about 7-7:15 am and doesn't get home until about 8:30.

Think of the bright side, its not permanant, and the rewards will be great, plus your stamina is being built up. <img border="0" title="" alt="[Wink]" src="wink.gif" />

Good luck.

[gtiseb]

I here you dude, My situtation : Work from 6 am to 4pm, drop my wife off at work at 4:30 pm , stay with the kids (cook, clean, homework) then got get my wife at 9 pm, repeat. she only has fridays off which we do all the other chores we can't do during the week alone. saturday and sunday? take wife to work at 9 am til 5 pm. Take care of the kids (1 8 yearold and 2 babies) while picking up the extra side contracts I can. Just got 2 (one Database for a candy store, and the other small business network). Let's jsut say there's alot of mileage on my car racking up.

but ya gotta tuff it out, good things come to those that wait .

[Wayward Clam]

Hey man, we're here if you need to rant and vent.

I know what it's like.

[Wayward Clam]

Hey Kato, you have 515 posts, send Driverguy a quick PM and ask to be let into the Steam Room. It's a great place to rant and bitch and you can post or say pretty much anything you like there with no need to be politically correct or anything like that...

[Tacklebox]

I feel your pain, man! Too much stress makes ya edgy! I'm working 8-5, my wife works nights, been going to school 2 nights a week since '98, got 2 little ones (girls 7 and 3), weekends are usually tied up with sports programs or yardwork or whatever.. What I find best to do is just deal with it and not think of how much I have to do, it'll calm down soon and to enjoy the kids while they're young. School is almost over so I'll take some time off after I get my degree. Stick with it dude, it'll pay off bigtime. <img border="0" title="" alt="[Wink]" src="wink.gif" />

[Radical Dreamer]

I had the same problem before I started work study, I got up at 8:00 to be at work till 5:00 then be at school at 5:30 til 10:30 then go home and go to bed, and oh yeah try to do something around the house so my GF woldnt b!tch and try to sqeeze in a meal or 2

[Morticia Addams]

Taz had the same killer schedule for two years also. Plus lived with his mom and sister who sometimes made him want to go postal to. Im sure he could give ya a little info.. But hang in there this last year and a half will be worth the struggle. Keep your head up. Stay strong

[Fierce]

I'm there too man...work 8am-4pm Mon, Wed and Fri....on Tues and Thurs I go to school 8am-1pm and then work 2pm-10pm (drive to work between 1pm and 2pm), plus I have a side consultanting job on Wed nites, and I volunteer as a coach for a local softball team, and have 2 wonderful children and a great fiance. At the end of this month my schedule will change to M-F work 4am-12noon and then go to school from 1pm to 4:30pm, and still do all the side stuff. Hang in there man, your not the only one, and look at the light at the end of the tunnel. Make time for yourself to release, thats something I didn't do when I started going back to school, and had to reprioritize things in my life for a bit. Take it day by day and you'll get thru. Nothing comes easy in this life, and the fact that your working hard and taking in this burden will increase your reward when finished. Good Luck! <img border="0" title="" alt="[Wink]" src="wink.gif" />

[kato]

thank you everyone for your encouraging words. Today has been one of the hardest days to get through, but you guys helped. After a crazy day of work and the dog driving me nuts, Just before school, I was getting extremely frustrated with the dryer knob that fell apart and would not go back together. After an hour of trying to get it to clip back together I was ready to slam either my hand or head through the window. When I got here and saw some encouraging words it calmed me down a bit. so thanks all